Disgusting photos ahead!


Eew I think its bleeding on top.
That will be eleven stitches.



haha too late you've seen it already.
I should have given an earlier warning.
When the nurse first removed the cast after my operation [by the way i had an operation] I could not wait to see how the stitches look like.
I think the surgeon must be very brave to be able to stitch human flesh its disgusting-meter is almost the same as.. i don't know, eating ren rou cha shou bao [means eating human flesh bao].

yucks.

and damn it will leave a scar.. not as if my legs are nice la but there will be a permanent mark.

It was an okay hospital stay, many people came to visit me and many people messaged me to show concern I really really really appreciate it!
Jeslyn accompanied me for the first few hours when I admitted, then eileen and bf came, then my mama and mei mei came, then the next day yuting michelle and dear roomie and mom and wanrong and wenting and the last visitor susan came to visit me.
I don't have many friends but these people cared enough to come and look at my lame self la.
Many people who couldn't come sent me messages with love!
I can't say enough times how much I appreciate it.

I think the person who deserves the most mentions is my dad la, no doubt.
fetch me everywhere like free like that whenever I sprain my ankle last time, and he doesn't even complain.
My family discourages me from playing soccer because I fall all the time but my dad says, "since you like it there's nothing I can say also."
He totally understands my stubbornness and even though he's the one doing the shit fetching me around he doesn't say one thing to discourage me cus he knows that I love soccer.
Just because I'm his daughter.
I think he's a great dad thats why I get freaking pissed off when my sisters speak to him rudely.

I get so pissed off for their bad manners and disrespect that i want to hang them upside down and whip them.. sometimes only la.

I want to talk about the operation experience which I only remember the before and after because I was unconscious during.
The nurse rudely woke me up [I was constantly sleeping] to get me to change into the operation gown which is actually an extra large sized bib.
It is one piece of cloth I could slip my arms into and tie the string behind my neck.
Below the string at the neck the cloth was open la I felt so exposed and the nurse didn't help my embarrassment one bit when she stood there and watched me take off everything.
It is almost as embarrassing as using the bedpan.

I wanted to slap the nurse cus the back of the cloth was flapping and everyone could see everything and this irresponsible thing didn't even accompany me to the toilet while helping me hold the back of the gown and my ambulation not steady pom pipi.
urgh.
anyway i went into the operation theatre alone.

alone.

alone.

a little bit saddening.

I wasn't scared at all actually I thought it a little exciting, my first operation!
And also I haven't thought about the cutting of my calf and blood..
So.. if you are going for an operation as long as you think about all other nonsense stuff the fear won't get to you trust me.
You won't even feel the pain because you'll be under the anesthesia.

The only moment I realised the gravity of my condition was when the nurse was trying to poke the iv drip thing into the back of my hand.
Damn it was quite painful and the thing was she took quite long la fiddling here and there.
At the same time the cute surgeon was saying something to make me laugh and distracting me and suddenly I passed out.

Well I'm very lazy to type more.

School has started already I conquered a many flights of stairs and fell only once.
Please don't let it rain when I go to school.

I really want to say that I am giving up soccer but I know that somehow I will play again.

Natasha I love you soooooo much thanks for visiting I love you

♥Bid Farewell