I think me and my Huiyi my noo noo are really quite predictable we always end up eating at Soup Spoon at Bugis.
Lovely girl..
I was telling her how my taste buds are non-sensitive because I couldn't tell between fantastic food and good food and how I feel inferior to food connoisseurs like Qiuyi who distinguish the fine flavours.
Noo noo told me that she also couldn't tell and that most food tasted good.
I was thinking, huh why are our taste buds so not acute? cui.
But she explained that we are just Very Nice and Non-judgemental people, even about food.
haha I like it.
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My fine day is coming to an end I wish I could end it with sweet thoughts but I can't stop the thread of sigh-inducing thoughts that erupted out of nowhere.
Nowhere being a really deep buried pessimistic cavern where unattractive thoughts lay in wait for the right moment to sneak up on me.
When things painful happens to you you go through a period of heartache and thinking which sometimes we name Emo-ing to try to define what just really happened and we rack our brains to find out why exactly it happened..
Was it something I did or did not do or said or did not say or.. what?
I do think we learn a lot from pain because it forces you to see and appreciate people/things/life for what it is in reality and formulate ways to prevent ourselves from getting into the same painful circumstance again.
There might be alterations with regards to beliefs or values or resolves that subtly morphs you into whatever you are now
And you think you can't get hurt anymore being a different, stronger person now.
But what if whatever had changed of yourself for self-preservation was not IT;
what if it wasn't about what you did or did not do
what if it had nothing to do with you at all..
what if it was simply Fate wanting to play a trick on you
and nothing you do can prevent it from happening
except to build a fortress around yourself to shut everyone out.
Nobody can hurt you if nobody can touch you where it matters most.
♥Bid Farewell
