Thursday, January 24, 2008
This fracture comes in a package.
In this wonderful package there is an insanely morbid fear of rain and extreme dread for staircases (especially during raining days) and also compulsory dependence on mates.
I cannot imagine how I used to adore the rain and the weather that comes with it.
Now it is only incessant worrying about how I might slip because the fucking crutches has 0 grip on wet floors, and how I might need to go for another operation if I do fall.
It had to rain when I finished classes just now and I am very disgusted by how my life is dictated by such minor natural environmental occasions such as the rain.
I stood on the road on my crutches trying to see if any kind soul would give me a short lift back to hall and susan and serene tried to hail a cab further down the road but to no avail.
Today I almost fell down the staircases again at the bustop at my hall because the steps are slightly slanted forward and my momentum sometimes overshoots my line of gravity.
I was almost certain i would fall to my death down the 30 steps and my heart stopped and I let out my last gasp as i hoped that if anything happened I'd rather death than be paralyzed.
If not for yuting today and alicia yesterday who held my arm just in time before I swung too far forward and.. sigh
Stairs were never this difficult or depressing.
Yuting and friends had to specially come back to hall to bring me back before going shopping.
Every single thing that they do they have to plan out carefully the route to accommodate me and i totally hate that.
I know that crying doesn't solve any problem and I am very thankful for friends who go everywhere with me and want to help me but they can't do anything to stop the rain from falling and if I do fall down the steps no one will be able to catch me.
Take heart that this is only going on for one more month and people care.
I hope I survive this.
♥Bid Farewell