Picture the shock on the girls' faces when i yelled F YOU LAR.
yelled.
i was disgusted by myself for not being able to hold the temper.
the score was 0-0 when we had a chance to win.
i couldnt control myself. the SRJC girls just continued kicking diana's ankle and did it over again and again after she got up.
she fell and couldnt get up.
when she did the SRJC girl went for her ankle again.
knowing that i can do nothing to help her sucks.
i swear i would have slapped that SRJC girl if i were near.
i lost control and shouted it.
sorry.
it is the first and will be the last time.
♥Bid Farewell
Fun On Foot, Adventure Singapore.
Yoke Yee, Qianwen, Huiyi And Qiuyi(Group Leader] managed to clinch the thrid position in the open category.
Yippee!
We recieved $400 in total.
It was fun, fun and fun.
♥Bid Farewell
People please meet the blood buddy.
Yes that red droplet of blood is the blood buddy.
He was kind of worn out after dancing in the assembly area in the morning trying to persuade people to donate blood.
That's why he's slumping on the table.
Joan, me and bloodbuddy.
Yasmine was so sweet k.
She was standing beside me telling me how painless the process would be.
she smiled at me to reassure me while the needle poked into my skin.
thank u thank u.
sweet thing. =)
♥Bid Farewell
Have you ever seen a happy person?
Or rather, have you ever seen a happy qianwen?
You should look at me today.
I walk with happy strides, so exultant you can sense exuberance emanating from me.
This happiness roots from the victory of TJC soccer girls who wrested the status of the winner from NJC. It was 2 nil.
Yes, exhausted, nevertheless thrilled.
For those of us who didn’t get to play, we were beaming like proud parents, or something to that effect. I hugged all of them. Thank you for making this a happy day for me. THANK YOU. =)
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Like many others, i felt out of place in TJC, at first.
Yuxi and nylx wasnt there to hold my hand when i felt lost[literally] and confused. Its not lesbianism. Having yuxi and nyl hook their arms around me makes me feel really secure and.. (x^.^x) loved. Huiyi and Qiuyi couldnt go home with me after a long day. i couldnt whine to ky about little things. ugh.
it is this dread of having nowhere to go that formed my habit of reaching TJ school gate at 0740 sharp. not even one minute earlier. My large surface area effect an obstacle that other tj-ians have to make an effort to avoid while walking past me. i'm considerate, i know.
Yes there are countless familiar faces, but its just different. they are distant.
Sometimes smiling becomes so tedious i seek solace talking to my addidas shoes.
I rendered the thought that perhaps i made a mistake coming to this school.
But then again, where else could it have been?
Mean as it seems, in retrospect, i'm fortuitous to have decided to quit the climbing club. Or i wouldnt have met them. It is, definitely, the one of the best things that has happened to me this year.
I told some of my friends that i didnt feel quite attached to TJ at all.
Well, i have to say that my perspective's changed dramatically.
I come to school just for soccer training. Its my only motivation.
i love the girls a lot a lot a lot.
they're heartwarming to go to.
happy racial harmony day!
♥Bid Farewell
it irks me when u do this.
dont break ur promises. i hate it. u got me excited over nothing. brought me disappointment and only that.
i love my niece best. i'm going to my soccer training now to see her.
boo you.
♥Bid Farewell
huiyi! i saw qiuyi on the way back to tj. but she didnt see me.
i haven felt this bad towards anyone bofore.
i did this horrible horrible thing to my niece.
me and my niece was fooling around when i accidentally hurt her back.
ouch.
so sorry.
sorry to put u in pain.
i wun do it again.
soccer competition kicks off tmr.
man, this is scary.
♥Bid Farewell
i'm sipping shark's fin soup now. luxurious right? my sis bought it from the pasar malam.
the girls had 3 matches in the afternoon.
it was pretty laborious. the sun was cruel. fried us all.
drinks were distributed for free initially, then they started charging a bottle of plain water $1 each when the sun was at its peak performance.
its so good to be a monopoly i aspire to be one too.
lujia, yasmin, niece and me went to parkway for the aircon and cold drinks. then me and niece sticked around in mph for quite a while to wait for her cousin and my ky.
my niece saved my life carrying my bag for me after dehydration being in the sun for 6 hours. lujia also saved my throat giving me strepsils instant pain relief for throat raspberry sweets. =)
having survived so much, me and ky left the comforts of the air-conditioned parkway to head for cchms.
supposed to go and meet hy and qy de. didnt see huiyi at the sch anniversary at all because i left early.
why did i leave early?
during sec 3/4 i was almost always in the vicinity of yuxi and nylx, who knew about my sec 2[then] eye candy, jeffrey.
when jeffrey walked past us or is spotted at a distance some of us would get the adrenaline rush.
we were so used to nudging each other[i think] and trying to steal a glance at him. last year i told ky about it so he knows who is jeffrey.
today ky and me saw jeffrey marching in his ncc uniform. u guessed it.
i turned around with speed and accuracy to kinyan and almost blurted out "jeffrey leh!!"
oh shit. only then did i think that i appeared too happy to see another boy.
he was so obviously mad at me. walking in front of me too quickly is one of the signs.
i always commit such blunders. anyway he slowed his pace after a while.
there were quite a number of old girls and boys who went to attend the cchs anniversary.
i was chatting with qiuyi and jasmine was just beside her.
one of jasmine's eyelid is drooping. hmm. i couldnt help it but kept peering at her eyelid. rude.
i was trying to figure how she manages to still look pretty with her a-symmetrical sized eyes.
ky sent me home and i felt nostalgic.
he used to go home with me and made sure i was at my doorstep before he leaves. that was last year. his house is ten minutes away from mine so don't think i'm torturing him.
we would take bus 12 instead of the mrt though the journey is sometimes one hour long.
we would listen to his mp3 which was lined with soothing, slow songs and enjoy the ride home.
i like it.
♥Bid Farewell
now its sprained. just 5 days before the competition starts. its the damnest thing that happened the whole week. the thing is the doctor advised her to rest her ankle for 3 weeks.
i hope she recovers soon.
don't be worried ok?
the other girls will support u and will feel despondent if u're pessimistic! =)
the girls are training almost everyday now and its inevitable someone falls.
its the norm that the injured rest for a while then put ourselves together to continue playing.
i guess wanfong might be blaming herself for being imprudent yesterday.
but look, no one's anticipated it to be so serious.
try to not feel guilty ya?
its the pernicious grass jealous of ur beautiful legs.
its a harsh lesson to be learnt.
♥Bid Farewell
i dun have time to go back cchms to take my o's cert with huiyi and qiuyi. so irritating.
i walked my niece to bedok interchange again. =)
♥Bid Farewell
there was soccer training today again, and u know what, i ran ten rounds on the track today. thats 4 km. well, training was tough, more intense than usual. maybe its my blocked nose, i had a hard time breathing. was practically wheezing the whole time.
i'm quite sure i wouldnt be in the first team. which means, i can scrutinize how my niece play during the matches. it will start next week. i cant wait.
49/100 is my maths score. which i didnt study. i'm alright with it.
and physics mcq 30/40. its relatively good compared to my sec sch physics. now, i'm even more convinced that gary chua completely paralysed my physics brain during my sec 3, 4 life.
i met a few canoeing seniors from mj on the train. muscin[correct?] and andy chatted with me a little then we met johnson and his canoeing friend at pasir ris mrt.
all very cute guys.
especially johnson!<= [this is for johnson to read]
[if u're not johnson then i was lying.]
i walked my niece to the bedok interchange, she's soooooo adorable.
like adorable-uwanttopinchhercheeks-adorable. i like her so much.
shh, dun tell her.
♥Bid Farewell
we've made up.
thank u for msging me to encourage me.
i wasnt undecided when i broke up with him. it seemed like an end already.
however he managed to convince me that i thought wrong about him.
a lot of promises were made.
its a new beginning.
people do take things for granted. because we forget, we belittle things that were important at the start, we are lazy to maintain relationships allowing them to sour as it has become so natural that things are supposed to be good.
i'm going to try to understand his life better by taking part in it.
my lil sis[although she's not so little] accompanied me to raffles city shopping centre to watch his short performance.
it was impressive in spite of the short duration of 10 minutes.
i was awed by the things he could do. like saumersault without hands.! i bet u cant u do that..
i've never seen him perform since god knows when.. so refreshing.
later me, my sis, ky and his sis took his mother's car home.
my sis told me a joke.
it goes..
one fine day, this girl who was wearing a skirt met a chee ko pek who accosted her.
chee ko pek: girl can u climb up the tree to pluck the leaves for me? i pay u money. the more u pluck the more money i pay u.
girl: ok lor.
[climbs up to pluck a lot a lot of leaves.]
girl goes home..
girl: mummy, i earned a lot of money today.
mum: how u earn money?
girl: some guy offered me money to pluck leaves from the tree.
mum: aiyo why u so blur?? the chee ko pek only wanted to peek under ur skirt to look at ur panties.!
girl: heng ar. lucky i never wear panties today!
♥Bid Farewell
mr ang is getting married some time next year!
yes i'm referring to mr royston aloyscious[duno how to spell] ang who taught science in cchms in year 2001.
whoppeeeee!
i'm so excited about his marriange.
during that time there was this other young teacher, Miss Zhang, who taught us maths and my class 1ly would tease[childishly] mr ang about his "illicit" relationship with miss zhang.
we would go "ang zhang ang zhang" [means dirty].
hais.
things didnt exactly happen as we wished as he was, at that time, in love with another chinese teacher, ms chia. nonetheless, we still continued ignoring the real girlfriend and teased ang zhang. she must have felt awful.
the couple, ms chia and mr ang have been together for around 4+ years?
the main point is THEY'RE GETTING HITCHED.!
i haven heard such good news for a long time. let us all sad people dip into their happiness and add some joy to our lives.
♥Bid Farewell
i know i am one mean ass.
Or not.
Maybe he wants the same thing to happen too, but didnt have the heart to suggest it.
So, i took the initative to say lets break up.
Somehow it became "lets cool it."
Coincidentally this happened on our 15th month anniversary.
yes thank god I know I have the support of my dearest jeslyn.
so screwed.
♥Bid Farewell
i went to East Coast Park to do CIP just now. many didnt turn up and most were late. poor matthias.
weiwei came with vannessa, who dressed up prettily i.e. heels, make-up, skirt, handbag, to pick rubbish with us.
and vannessa isnt even from tj. so sweet of her. =)
slack.
we were just holding the garbage bag, enjoying the sea breeze and leisurely strolling.
see, the 3 of us, still looking clean. no sweat at all.
and xingyue is one weird girl.
she walked from paya lebar mrt to cchms[under the scorching sun at 3pm], thinking that the distance is nearer/more convenient than walking to the 135 bustop in front of singapore post.
damn cool.
she said she didnt want to take the wrong bus.
i totally understand.
i didnt know the extent of her blurness until i went home with her.
we were yakking yakking on bus 31, happyily assuming that the bus will go to tampines.
to our horror, we only realised it was going the opposite direction after god knows how long. the bus passed cchms bustop, went by broadrick, was going to kallang.
xy do u know where is this?
me kallang.
silence. xy told me she was trying to recall the mrt route.
xy how come we're in kallang. is this a route u know that i dont?
both of us went into laughing fits.
tsk.
blur + blur= 2 blur
when the bus went by chung cheng,
we even talked about how we missed chung cheng, people from cchms, but didnt realise that the bus we took was going to toa pah yoh, NOT supposed to go past our secondary school.
i think we are both the type that takes-wrong-buses/alight-at-wrong-stops frequently.
though we're from the same cg, we dun really know each other.
but i like her already.
i like listening to her and talking with her.
perhaps we both have a young brother. somehow relates us.
i am fond of listening to people who can talk. and who can listen, not hear.
i fervently enjoy their company.
say, biyi, very entertaining, she talks animatedly about crazy things she do.
natasha too, who can put humour into everything.
and then yuxi, really has her own mind about things and listens to people's problems.
carynl, aiyo, everyone she knows likes to talk to her.
huiyi too. bring the extreme siliness out of me.
and my sis of course.
i find irresistable guys who sing to me.
i once know this incredibly eloquent guy who called me every night for 2 days or 3 days, just talking to me.
his voice is, how to say.. alluring.
he sang on the phone. to me.
swept off my feet i was.
i almost fell in love with him.
when someone sings to me, and i'm the only audience, i cant help but go ga-ga over him.
it makes one feel very special.
i just love it.
i think that guys who possess this special gift of being able to sing are very lucky.
use that talent to get your girl, sure work one.
♥Bid Farewell
ky "ya. wan date me issit?"
me "just wondering whether u're free tmr."
ky "meet what time tmr?"
me "no la i asking only. never say i want go out with u."
ky "y? are we still meeting tmr?"
me "i was thinking y u dun want to ask to meet me tmr. so, no we're not meeting. "
i didnt mean to sound so caustic. i just hate it when he says he wants to see me but just says it. he knows we're both free but he doesnt ask. and i'm too proud to say "lets go out together".
i want to grumble.
as an afterthought, my misery[with him] is not entirely unfounded.
in my opinion, a girlfriend is a companion to share both joy and sadness, not cause [some/any]misery to.
which couple doesnt meet for one week, sometimes 2?
i dont even hear his voice every 2 days. he doesnt even go home with me when we end lessons at the same time. look, tjc and vjc are only 10 minutes away from each other.
yes, we sms each other. i find it very ineffective to carry on a virtual conversation on hp with him when i can only type 160letters/sms and i have only a measly 360 free sms per month. i still need to sms my niece you see.
he's rather reticent with me many times. means i don't really know him well. i dont know what he thinks. usually i'll be the one trying to say something and he doesnt hear it. or he doesnt respond. as in he gives one word responses. "oh." "ya." "ok."
i can say that to myself.
somebody once told me that the reason i'm still with him is my laziness.
to handle the hassle, explanation to friends and family, possible heartbreak and tears.
even so, its to an infinitesimal extent.
i just harbour hope that things will change when he's not so busy with his wushu competitions. i'm just, waiting.
the thing is i'm so filled with exasperation when i think of him.
its wrong.
i've already forgotten why we're together.
remind me to hold dear to the happy memories.
♥Bid Farewell
