I like dance and I like babies.
This is a must watch.
♥Bid Farewell
My dear Girl,
I am quite stoned today cus I slept little and when I am tired I don't really talk a lot plus you gotta know that I am not eloquent at all, when so many things are running through my head I don't know how to make sense of it all and thats why I responded incoherently to your stories during our HTHT..
I sincerely apologize for that because.
I.. erms.. erms..
see I suck at this.
okays I know how much courage it takes to dig out a past which you are ashamed of,
to go through in your mind many many times and revisit the turmoil and emotions and regrets from those ordeals,
to be able to tell it to someone and take a gamble,
not knowing whether that person you're telling you is going to walk away or judge you or really, just listen and accept you for being real, for being human and being honest.
and i don't think that i am gracious like ALICIA and TEGUH/SUSAN
ok dun get distracted.
The point is, I never doubted that somewhere inside you is a beautiful considerate soul that knows how to love.
No matter what you tell me about yourself which others might think is despicable or ugly or very very scandalous
nothing will change what I think of you because the soul does not get tainted by physical blemishes.
Anyways the point is human errs and I trust that you are someone intelligent and considerate enough to learn from your experiences and not repeat them right?
I have faith in you sweetheart.
[and I cross my heart and swear that your stories will not leave my lips kk. :) ]
Girl you are just sweet to confide in me I hope we'd become closer too I know where you are coming from and your reasons for telling me things I really do understand.
Thank you for your trust in me that I can take all this in even though I act siao siao all the time.
I can accept you.
And I like the imperfect, real you much better today than yesterday.
♥Bid Farewell
I think me and my Huiyi my noo noo are really quite predictable we always end up eating at Soup Spoon at Bugis.
Lovely girl..
I was telling her how my taste buds are non-sensitive because I couldn't tell between fantastic food and good food and how I feel inferior to food connoisseurs like Qiuyi who distinguish the fine flavours.
Noo noo told me that she also couldn't tell and that most food tasted good.
I was thinking, huh why are our taste buds so not acute? cui.
But she explained that we are just Very Nice and Non-judgemental people, even about food.
haha I like it.
***
My fine day is coming to an end I wish I could end it with sweet thoughts but I can't stop the thread of sigh-inducing thoughts that erupted out of nowhere.
Nowhere being a really deep buried pessimistic cavern where unattractive thoughts lay in wait for the right moment to sneak up on me.
When things painful happens to you you go through a period of heartache and thinking which sometimes we name Emo-ing to try to define what just really happened and we rack our brains to find out why exactly it happened..
Was it something I did or did not do or said or did not say or.. what?
I do think we learn a lot from pain because it forces you to see and appreciate people/things/life for what it is in reality and formulate ways to prevent ourselves from getting into the same painful circumstance again.
There might be alterations with regards to beliefs or values or resolves that subtly morphs you into whatever you are now
And you think you can't get hurt anymore being a different, stronger person now.
But what if whatever had changed of yourself for self-preservation was not IT;
what if it wasn't about what you did or did not do
what if it had nothing to do with you at all..
what if it was simply Fate wanting to play a trick on you
and nothing you do can prevent it from happening
except to build a fortress around yourself to shut everyone out.
Nobody can hurt you if nobody can touch you where it matters most.
♥Bid Farewell
Omg the weekends are over in the blink of an eye but oh wells they say that good times pass really quickly...
Saturday morning is usually the time I sleep and sleep and roll around on my bed procrastinating the time which I have to leave my precious bed and live my life.
But it was totally worth it when I woke up at 830 in the morning to meet my precious TJ soccer lovelies - Lugay Diana Wanfong Simin - for a
The Healthy turn-piggies-into-fitties Mount Faber Walk.(er hem this walk was named by Wanfong, I think, or Lugay)
Totally worth it.
Can keep fit and spend precious time sweating with my babies!
Just like old times when we trained together and sweat like mad on the soccer pitch and tracks.
whoo~
just happy :D
Anyways the walk was great the scenery was alright not bad and the paths not too tiring,
and we had an amateur tourguide Wanfong to bring us around.
On more than one occasions she brought us walking the wrong path and walking the extra distance when the destination was right in front of us.
Sigh.
This tour guide is not informative at all; her instructions for what we have to bring is "don't wear heels".
Good.
There was this time we were standing in front of the map by the road after walking some distance and
Diana asked "So where did we come from?"
and the wonderful tour guide said , "Hell."
good.
Diana went on to clarify "I mean us, not you."
Win already. haha
So after 2 ++ hours of walking the conversation kept going back to food and the ubiquitous smell of curry was driving us crazy.
You might ask why is there the smell of curry in nature?
We do not know too.
haha
Lugay said that our stomachs were hallucinating.
Highly probable.
Sorry soccer babies I am tired and can't really remember more jokes of that day already
I do clearly remember though that we laughed a lot haha.
We gotta do this again I love you guys.! :D
That same night Cal drove me to Wine Company for dinner and omg so fun.
I mean the place was quite nice and quiet on Dempsey Hill and the food was yummy (but a lil cold cus we ate so slowly -_-" ).
But the company rocks my socks.
Its really not easy to find someone whom you can throw face in front of and that person doesn't even think that whatever face-throwing thing you just did is unglam.
I can assure you that many people can't accept the face-throwing things I do.
hee
Happy until I can't stop smiling.
:)
♥Bid Farewell
Everytime Cal asks me what I did at work today I will think think think for damn long and still can't answer that properly.
I remember vividly going to work, leaving work, having breaks and most frequently,
leaning against the nursing counter.
It is a mixed blessing working in this kind of slack environment because on one hand,
we don't have to work like when I was in CGH, like a mad dog chionging here and there to change diapers, answer call bells and bathe the patients.
It was miserable then because we felt like we weren't learning any new things as we were just helping out here and there.
But on the other hand, it is so freaking free here in RH that I am getting a dent in my chest for leaning too often on the nursing counter.
haha I was feeling quite sad about sacrificing my 9 weeks of holidays for unpaid attachments to LEAN AGAINST THE NURSING COUNTER?
So today I decided to write down all the things I actually did for the patients before I forget again.
That was Meiling's 21st birthday and she had PM shift which meant that she spent it in the ward. Damn.
Okays so here it is,
today I
1. Did admissions for a patient going for elective caesarian
2. Gave fleet enema
3. Gave suppository painkillers
Haha I like doing this!
(By the way fleet enema and supp are medicine that goes into your rectum. )
If you get disgusted easily please stop reading now.
I used to be so scared of inserting medicine through the anus because didn't like causing pain and awkwardness for the patient.
And most importantly, I wasn't sure where the anus was.
Don't roll your eyes at me yet.
Just check out your own anus and tell me if the hole is obvious or not.
Because it is not!
You can feel your own but you try looking at someone else's closely and you'll know that the hole is like not a hole.
I think I just lost you here.
Anyways the other day I saw a weird piece of flesh at where the anus was supposed to be and I was stumped.
I thought I saw wrongly, and kept staring at it.
Until my staff nurse encouraged me to push the flesh back in and just insert the medicine.
I used my finger (gloved, of course) to try to push the flesh into the anus but it was slippery and stubborn.
sigh.
So I still couldn't tell where the hole was.
Then I just took my chance and anyhow insert the medicine into the left of the flesh.
And it went in!
haha I win, the flesh lose.
( I learnt that the flesh was actually piles. oh. )
Anyways after inserting the suppository the nurse's finger is supposed to insert the finger about 4cm into the anus as well for about 5 secs to ensure that the medicine doesn't slip out.
After starting to help insert that for a few times, I realise that hmm its not painful at all! (albeit a little uncomfortable)
and one patient actually said I was gentle.
wah super happy can.
4. Removed a urinary catheter
5. Removed IV plug
6. Gave IV fluids
7. Took parameters
8. CARRIED BABIES
9. Changed nappies for a baby
OMG I love changing nappies.
I get weirdly happy when I get a whiff of baby poo because it means that I can help the baby wipe backside and change diapers.!
I think I gotta control my excitement when somebody says 'shit' or 'da bian'.
10. Carried the baby again
isn't life amazing.?
Life is just amazing like that I can't explain to you how amazing it is that life creates life and there is actually a little baby inside the tummy and all of a sudden the little baby is physically there in the cot,
physically separated from the mother but spiritually connected with the mom.
Aiya I think you just gotta go through the whole thing to understand what I am feeling.
11. Took parameters
12. Brought a kid to the toilet like ten times
I thought it was impossible to pee when someone watches you.
I was proven wrong.
13. helped the nurse do suctioning for the baby.
I don't think I can do paeds I don't think I can stand having the baby wail and struggle and fight like that when I do things for them.
14. gave nebuliser
Maybe I did some other things also but I'm too lazy to type anymore.
__
Things are going so well nowadays that it is becoming eerie.
I'm so happy so so happy that I want all this to stop.
This is too good to be true how can such good things happen to me?
Am I dying?
Is this like some peace and bliss before my death?
♥Bid Farewell
The funniest mail ever.
Dear PL1101E Students,
Having reviewed your CA 1 Mid-Term MCQ Test marks, it has come to our attention that negative marking was not accurately computed: instead of 0.20 being subtracted from your total score for each inaccurate answer, 0.20 was added for each incorrect answer you made. Your CA1 mark has since been updated on IVLE to reflect the correct marks, taking into consideration negative marking. Please take note of this change. We do apologise for this mistake, and assure you that all marks have been checked repeatedly and thoroughly. Thank you for your attention.
Regards,
XXX
I was damn sian when I read that mail because I was convinced I couldn't have scored so well for that test -> they must have made a mistake.
HENG AR.
I just checked my results on IVLE and the results are still the same. :))
**
Work has been wonderful thus far - its only been 4 days of work, maybe I'll start to complain and whine as time passes.
All 8 of us - LingLing, Yuting, MeiLing, Pamela, Jiayu, Shermin, Yan Qi - are all working in the same ward albeit different shift so we can look after and support each other.
(By the way we're not paid for the attachment, not even the transport fees, unlike the poly and ITE nursing students.
The reason our school gave us was that... aiya some nonsense I can't remember.
I'm lucky to be sponsored or I'll have to eat grass.)
haha I enjoy working so much!
We have to keep on standing and walking around for the entire shift of 8 hours ok 7hrs excluding the break but the satisfaction of being useful helps motivate us.
I think everybody loves to ask this question:
"You're a nurse? You mean you have to clean shit for the patient?"
Here's the answer:
Yes I have to clean shit for the patients.
Besides cleaning shit,
I also need to change their diapers,
help them shower,
clear their urine and
*drum rolls*
change blood soaked pads for my patients!
I just started doing this because I'm in Obstetrics and Gynaecology (O & G) and mothers who just gave birth will have their menses, ya a lot of menses.
I love doing all that.
A bit weird right?
I just read what I typed and it reminds me of the time an ITE nursing student I met told me she loves to wash the sink and I was -_-" ing at that.
maybe you are -_-"ing at me now I totally understand.
haha
Anyways its like when I see the patients lying in bed I feel a surge of love for them like I just want to take care of them and make them comfortable and do anything to make them feel alright.
I think I speak for my fellow classmates as well, right? Raise your hands if you agree!
I have a soft spot for the sick and the unwell,
so if you want me to fall for you,
just be KeLian/Kesian -
for example get injured or get sick or
be perpetually tired because you have trainings you're obligated to go to,
or miss your family because you're studying in Singapore alone and your family is not with you,
or be emotionally traumatized
aiya something along that line.
I confirm get hooked.
Yup but if you're too whiny or if you overdo it or if you're totally a nua sai or if you are like gross hmm just go away. haha.
haha shit did I just admit that..
Anyways.. work is great.
Friends who jio me to party (shing, pea, shuyu, HELLO BABES!)
and those who drives me around are bestest (Hi cal! haha i don't think he reads but whatever).
Those who don't like me to party (hi Ling Ling) are also very good.
I'm touched that you care so much about me even though I don't like to hear you talk about how I shouldn't club *covers my ears lalalalalalalala I can't hear you*
ok kidding.
I loves yous Ling!
You guys need to jio me to go out.
I have no life leh.
Labels: Work
♥Bid Farewell
Yesterday was a freaking tiring day with the dance practice at CCAB after work, followed by an hour bus ride home.
I almost fell asleep at work this morning..
man.
I hope they change the venue of the dance prac.
Its at Bukit freaking Timah now, and my home is at Pasir Ris.
But I guess this tiredness is worth it cus I haven't danced together with Shing and Des for such a long time already.!
We girls saw the costume and its going to be oh-damn-indecent.
We've decided to lose weight together so that we can look normal in indecent clothes.
Haha that plan actually might not work so well when you have nice friends like Cal.
He's so nice la he came to my hospital to drive me home and on the way we went to IKEA to eat sticky ice-cream.
Tell me how to lose weight when you have nice friends like that?
Eat ice-cream and don't need to walk to go home leh.
Confirm grow fat.
Die liao.
haha this guy really cracks me up. :)
I'm so glad I found another friend who doesn't find my jokes and thinking TOO weird and is willing to entertain my nonsense.
My little sis too. Totally willing to continue my jokes. I like!
If only I could shrink my favourite people and keep them inside my pocket I would be a very blessed girl.
but then again I am already very blessed to have my favourite people just at an SMS/call away.
♥Bid Farewell
Hey YUTING MY LOVE!
You make me happy; because of you now I can take part in the dance performance for Asian Youth Games.
I know you didn't know what you were in for when I, "eh yuting can you swap shifts with me?"
but you almost immediately agreed to swap .
hmm Perhaps you're a bit regretting now cus you wanted your original shift but you still gave me ur blessings to be with your original shift.
I will be extra extra nice to you - did u agree cus I lent u my shoes for your dance lessons? haha - and buy you latte from spinelli!
Everybody, this is my nice friend yuting.
:)
Yup since I'm thanking ppl I might as well.
Thanks cal for driving all the way from home to NUS and helping me move my things home..
I appreciate it a lot.
:)
Okay.
My ward has babies.
WHEE WOO WHEE~!
U guys stop telling me I can't eat the babies - I'm trying already.
♥Bid Farewell
Tonight was such an awesome night.
Thanks friends for being here. :)
♥Bid Farewell
I'm so contented after a long 9 ++ hrs of sleep.
Whee exams are finally over.!
omg the last paper Genes and Soc is officially the worst-est paper I've ever taken.
Studying was for the exam was fun, but doing the paper itself was tortuous.
I sat at the last row in the exam hall and felt like dying because of the undoable MCQs.
From the back of the hall I could see people vomitting, slitting their wrists, pulling their hair, falling asleep..
Right now as I recall doing the impossible MCQs I have cold sweat forming on my forehead.
It was really that bad.
I realise that life science modules are difficult.
I sympathise with but respect you, life-science peeps.
Ling Ling stayed over the night with me to study which really helped.
If I were alone, I would have slept about 3 hrs more than I did that night.
haha so after exam I went to pierce my tongue again.
I couldn't find any approving people who not nag at me to 'don't la don't do it la don't la don't la don't leh don't leh' so I asked the experience MC to go with me.
I thought of going there alone, but I am.. kind of scared to go alone to a tattoo palour.
the best part is I couldn't remember exactly where the place is because when Ian brought me there 2 years ago I was looking at the floor all the time when walking there.
I vaguely remember seeing the river and a bridge and a 7-11.
So I went to the map at the MRT station trying desperately to recall where it was I walked to..
Couldn't find it.
So I smsed MC while waiting at the MRT: "I feel lost"
And MC replied: "haha stay brother will come pick you up from the lost and found"
...
Anyway I found the place in the end; it was by the river and near a bridge.
When I went to the shop the tattoo ShiFu remembered me!
He remembered that I came with Ian 2 years ago and that Ian sings and that we worked in the Clarke Quay area.
He remembered!!!
I am expressing my amazement cus I bet he sees like 10 customers a day and how can he remember us to such detail!
wah.
haha he is totally like Huiyi my noo.
Noo is damn zai at remembering things too.
Amazes me all the time.
She remembers the sitting arrangement in class during our secondary days.
Who remembers such useless information???
Shows how zai she is.
Hi HUIYI!!!!! I miss you!
Yup this is my second time getting it pierced and DAMN it is freaking more painful than the last time I went la..
The first time it was so not pain that I kept thinking he injected anaesthesia 2 years ago until he did the procedure again
then I was like
ooh, so there wasn't any anaesthetic.
oops dumb.
Anyway it was seriously more painful.
Just look at my face at 00:16 sec.
wah its quite unglam
haha.
I was tearing and drooling like crazy if you have can see.
I hope you get to read this post before I decide to remove it.
Exams have ended, but i'll miss studying with friends like shee, ling, susan, alicia, pea, yuting and cal..
The company and inspiration from each of them had been great.
OK bye going timbre.. :D
♥Bid Farewell
Since when did we become such mushy people..
haha.
I LOVE YOU TOO!
This is a really good day :)
so much love to keep me going..
One more day to the end of exams,
one more day to freedom,
one more day to getting my piercing. (pls don't try to stop me, cus its alright, I've done it before just that it closed. )
Whee~
♥Bid Farewell
Babe are you angry at me because of what I blogged?
If you are, I sincerely apologize for the unintended hurt.
The blog post was talking about how petty I am, Not how whatever you were.
I don't know, its just really sad that you're thinking that I intended to degrade you or whatever..
WHY WOULD I? :'(
But I can understand why you'll feel this way,
I really can,
but I really hope you'd think about it again and give me the benefit of the doubt?
I swear, whatever you think I was trying to imply when I blogged,
its not what I meant.
I appreciate and give thanks every single day for having a sister with such generosity and kindness even though I don't say it, I thought you'd know.
I'm amazed/surprised at how readily you agree to lend me your things like your bangles, clothes, make-up, earpiece...
Because I know that if you asked me, I'd consider it for 10 seconds before saying yes.
I'm touched by how resourceful you are, and how willing you are to buy things for me;
like when I needed help with the costumes for DP, even though you didn't have to, you very friendlyly agreed to help me look for them.
Every weekend I so enjoy going home because you make home home.
I keep thinking to myself why am I so lucky to have sisters to be able to talk to,
irritate, and have SO MUCH FUN with.
Oh, and your macoroni rocks my world.
Whenever I talk to you about situations/people/phenomenons I didn't understand,
you'll let go my skewdness and abnormality in thinking,
and answer my questions honestly.
Sometimes/Most of the time I treat you like my Oracle.
Anyway, the point is, I am flawed; among them one of it is insensitivity towards you.
Can you stop being angry with me?
Because I love you so much, I can't stand you mad at me.
If you knew how much pride I have, you'll know how much I care for you to blog this post.
**P.S.: Just to let you know, I will feel like a retard if you weren't talking about me in your blog.
-_-"
but the items said above are true all the same.
♥Bid Farewell
omg I hate this feeling.
But I do love it so.
♥Bid Farewell
Why do I make the same mistakes over and over again..
What is ironic is that the new situations have the exact same signs and symptoms as previous ones and I can still persist in walking the downtrodden path which leads to disappointment,
giving myself excuses like that the factors/persons involved/weather/location is different this time,
I am different this time,
and most importantly
I can't help but behave this way this time.
♥Bid Farewell
