Tell me what you want straight.
No more guessing games, unbearable.
♥Bid Farewell
its a holiday break when she's having examinations?
Sounds so much like me now its uncanny.
♥Bid Farewell
Boys who cry are ninnies.
Boys who whine are sissies.
Boys who beat wives are rogues.
Boys who deceive are unworthy of love.
Boys who slouch are ugly.
Some of the traits that are distasteful.
The last two apply to both girls and boys.
**
I met ryan on the bus yesterday.
It felt homey to see him he reminds me so much
of chung cheng days.
Its different to meet him and to meet hy qiu nyl
plus the thousand others from cchms in tj.
These one thousand and three has moved on with me and somehow
when I meet this boy it feels as if he and I were still wearing
the same white 7- buttoned uniforms.
Okay I experience identical feelings when i meet yx.
As if we were still the same, 3 years back.
Time to reminisce.
♥Bid Farewell
I hope it'll be fun.
And that my juniors are going.
Its immoral not to let them, despite the technical difficulty
of squeezing all 60 of us[my estimation] boys and girls inside the safra chalet.
The thing is I've never been fond of having a chalet.
There's always nothing to do.
The only reason I go is to see people I miss.
♥Bid Farewell
My brother is a jaw dropper.
He does jaw dropping things to drop our jaws.
Yes, its about him all the time.
Anyway, I heard him play tong hua on the piano.
tong hua leh. Its the JJ lin's tong hua.
Amazing, isn't it.
He heard my other cousin play the song and it took him a
mere day to play it himself. [With my cousin's coaching, duh]
Of course he only uses one hand to play but its still a great feat.
Every single time he does something astonishing like
that it induces tears.
I'm not a sissy but.. yeah.
I look at myself and I look at him, eh if I can start
all over again to be be nurtured properly I'll turn out to be different.
Those who don't have much younger siblings won't know
how it feels like to watch a person in the making.
...
I found a few chilling detrimental impacts from watch too much tv.
'American children and adolescents spend 22 to 28 hours per week
viewing television, more than any other activity except sleeping.
By the age of 70 they will have spent 7 to 10 years of their lives
watching TV.'
Hey asian kids do too.
And they watch more than 28 hours per week;
closer to 50 hours. =0
'If your child watches 3 to 4 hours of noneducational TV per day,
he will have seen about 8,000 murders on TV by the
time he finishes grade school.'
No wonder my brother displays sporadic violent streaks.
I hate watching tv too its such a waste of time.
Unless you're watching HBO, National Geographic, Discovery Channel,
Desperate Housewives, The Wade Robson Project, Project Runway,
The O.C. [Maybe.?], Spongebob.. And of course, the World Cup that everybody
is siao about.
I watch too much tv although I hate it.
But tell me how to resist cable tv.
♥Bid Farewell
My little sister was really nice to me yesterday.
She offered me half of her tuna sandwich my elder sister brought home from subway.
It wasn't even half actually, she offered me more than half.
After which she helped me throw away the wrapper.
You'd think that its nothing but it actually means something between siblings.
To be nice.
♥Bid Farewell
You know those people who station at mrt stations carrying tin donation cans?
Sometimes during peak donation periods there'll be
at least 2 different organisations raising funds at the same place.
I hate it when they appear at pasir ris mrt station.
The route home would be like an obstacle course.
The moment I exit the mrt I would map out my escape route
so as to avoid volunteers from pushing their tin cans into my nose.
Trust me, it was tedious to peek at them sideways and at the same time,
pretend they're invisible, and most importantly, avoid eye-contact, at all costs.
If you looked at them for more than a split second
it'll lead to the misunderstanding that you wanted to donate.
Following is awkwardness when you push their tin cans away from your nose.
The reason why I was so averse to these fund raisers was because
I heard about them earning commissions and I knew that the students
didn't give a shit to who they were helping.
And of course, the biggest reason was that I was miserly.
Oh no I was miserly.
I didn't like knowing that at all.
So I started learning to prepare my ten cent coins when the tin cans approached.
The first time I was a little embarrassed to be donating so little, trying hard to shield the coin from the volunteer's line of vision when I inserted the coin.
I realised that they don't mind the amount you donated.
That's nice.
Yeah so I started donating money.
My most generous offer's one dollar.
It feels wonderful too. To be of help to anyone.
Although I don't have that much to offer,
call me if you need help with maths, I'll donate my time to you.
♥Bid Farewell
So I shall be.
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The title of this picture is "The 3 Monsters". As you can see.
The second to fourth pics were taken quite a while ago.
So cute right.
My brother doesn't care what I do to him.
Which reminds me of this.
Talented, yes.
♥Bid Farewell
You think so too.
We kind of look alike?
I cut the side and back of his hair.
Its supposed to look like a cool helmet, you know, pointy at the sides.
Pretty pretty pretty.
He's as pretty in real life.
Like sister like brother.
♥Bid Farewell
We were playing field soccer against some soccer year 1 boys when she said that inspiring message.
Sigh.
Most of my juniors are like that.
I watched the England vs Trinidad in hy's house.
Saw Dwight Yorke massaging himself after getting hit there.
Damn obscene.
♥Bid Farewell
to the June Common Tests.
The panic attack visited me momentarily the day before and left.
I don't mean panic attack as in "I want to faint, I feel impaled, I need medicine".
As in the much milder form which you have difficulty breathly smoothly your mind goes blank except from thoughts of the lack of time and brains.
Although the rush of adrenaline provokes extreme thoughts,
I enjoy feeling the stress[immensely] at the same time.
It makes me focus very well hence improving the efficiency of studying.
Come, panic attack.
I can't do badly I'll look so bad in front of my little sister.
I learnt something very pecuiliar about how guys and girls pee.
Also the reason why my little brother urinates on the toilet seat,
the floor and everywhere else except the hole.
Boys can't control their pee line. Hahahahahaha.
♥Bid Farewell
My first and best indian friend.
♥Bid Farewell
I thought I'm not stressed about studying and the June Common Tests.
My erupting pimples are telling me otherwise.
♥Bid Farewell
Neither have I.
Read the book again if your memory's poor[like weiwei.] and watch the movie,
or watch the movie and read the book,
or watch the movie, read the book and watch the movie for a second time,
or watch the movie again and again.
Whichever way you prefer.
Or don't touch it if you're christian.
Its blasphemous.
Kind of sad the way love and lust are ambiguous with each other.
Don't deny that its difficult to draw the line between wanting to do it out of love and wanting to do it because that is how nature made us.
♥Bid Farewell
Human's perpetual search for the reason of their existance is due to the yearning to feel needed and wanted, dont you think?
I saw Sheryl's face light up when I appeared at the sports complex to help her train the year ones. Despite the possibility that it was a figment of my imagination, it was heartwarming. =)
Bus rides home are enjoyable, even better when you have good company.
♥Bid Farewell
Hahahahaha.
Mervyn just smsed me.
Hohoho.
I'm not un-missed anymore. =D
♥Bid Farewell
Never fails to appear naked at the bathroom door to ask his mother for clothes.
Wanfong told me something about diana and me which is both surprising and out of the blue.
I don't know how to be friends with diana again.
It has been such a long time since we were friends.
I'm boring and bored.
Nobody smses me. Except HuiQi who replies my relay messages.
And Ben who informed me that he's going to ditch me on wed.
Sms me.
♥Bid Farewell
Goody goody.
The school would reimburse me money [$76] for the medical fees incurred from my sprain.
Since the maximum amount that I can claim for each injury is $100, I was thinking whether to just go for one more treatment for the sake of using up the whole $100?
So cheapskate. Too cheapskate I won't do it.
Which reminds me.
I was walking around in Toys'R Us killing time while waiting for the photos to develop.
There was this cute advertisement which started with a couple sitting in front of the bar with a glass of alcohol.
This guy left the screen for a while and came back with another straw to share the drink.
In the speech bubble above the guy's head it read 'romantic'.
Guess what was in the girl's?
It was 'cheapskate'.
That was the advertisement for Scrabbles. Cute ya.?
Oogled at sissy boy playing soccer today.
You have to agree that he emanates charm when he displays his skills. <3
♥Bid Farewell
My cousin's late for her piano lesson I'm responsible for that because I asked her to accompany me to Suntec.
We travelled all the way there just for this photo.
Know why? Its free.
Worth all the cause.
[I didnt want to go today the ankle's killing me but today's the last day before they delete the photo]
I think this photo is weird looking and kind of awkward.
Is it the background? Is it the contrast in colour between our tops and face?
Ugly but nice.
That's Johnson who took me to his end of course dinner. =)
Our stomachs were rumbling a little and the time was still early so we went downstairs to Cold Storage for food.
Cold Storage might just be my favourite place in Suntec!
Oh look what it offers.
There was this whole aisle [ alongside the escalators] of chips; Ruffles, Lays, Nachos, Calbee, you name it they have it.
Those foods were tempting just laying there their wrappers bright and seductive.
oh no so greedy.
haha I couldn't help grabbing them.
Passengers on the other escalator moving up were sniggering, ' thats why she's that size.'
I heard them and proceeded to put them all back.
My cousin's fun to be with.
__
Well I've decided that there's too little reason for me to be upset.
As long as he's healthy and well and rosy and noisy and still my brother.
♥Bid Farewell
I'm okay
I don't give a shit
I'm fine
Pretend nothing's happened
I'm alright
Its no big deal
I'm alive and kicking
I don't care
Forget this
I'm indifferent
I'll get over it
.
I'm sad.
The phone has been beckoning me to send an sms I know is going to be regretted.
ARGH.
This is frustrating.
Because nothing can be done.
♥Bid Farewell
I realised that cissy boy is the ONE for me.
I'm even more determined to make friends with him
now that I think he won't forsake me.
hahahahaha.
I've miraculously gotten over it after one day of acting like a zombie.
[Acty if nat didnt call me to tell me things I MIGHT still be sad. hmm, so, thanks. ]
I surprise myself sometimes.
To whoever feels guilty, DONT BE.
Just look at me.
I am still the same [siao] happy go lucky boy.
♥Bid Farewell
