Today was not supposed to rain because it is little Zixuan's 9th birthday.. I was planning to head straight from my final theory test at woodlands to Marina Barrage to celebrate his birthday. I passed the FTT with flying colours (49/50). Zai. But the truth is, without the help of past year MCQs I would have failed.
Anyway.. I was quite excited about this family excursion.. We were armed with kite and all ready..
But then I got news that the event is cancelled due to bad weather conditions. Boo~
Caleb is cute with kite sticking out of bag. :D
Since we were out already.. we went to watch RED. hilarious! It is a different kind of action movie with funny tricks. Watch and you'd know what I mean..
So on the way back to campus I was feeling a tad disappointed about the cancelled outing and got thinking about whether it is possible to throw our kite out the little window and get it flying..
Me and caleb discussed it and I realised that in order to catch wind in the kite, we need to be in the highest floor or at the corner block of the whole estate.
Then I asked Cal that if we were to buy another HDB flat, could we choose the corner house at the highest floor?
He totally understood me; "Because you want to fly kite in the house is it? ok."
Huge love!
♥Bid Farewell
Its 4.30am and I’m still up but that is normal because we’re in the midst of exams.
Mine have ended but I’m just accompanying one miserable boy who’s still cramming for his last paper, which is in 4.5hrs.
I’m not at all relieved that my one exam of the sem has ended..
I’m not denying that the paper was quite a killer but I feel that it was the easiest part of everything we have had to do this semester.
I’m still in the middle of amending my CSR protocol, amending my primary research proposal and worrying a lot.
I worry a lot nowadays.. or did I use to worry a lot previously too?
It is getting more and more difficult to fall asleep .. sometimes I spend 2 -3 hours pretending to sleep.
Like I told my mei mei, the trick to falling asleep is to pretend to be sleeping.
Not working that well now.
One night it was got really bad and depressing because my sleeplessness invited wild morbid thoughts about death.
I thought mostly about my parents and my mommy and her 160/130 hypertension and all the nasty things (e.g. stroke, heart attack….death) we tell our patients.
And it got me thinking how scary this whole deal of having a chronic disease is. All the serious complications if nothing was done about the illness.
It doesn’t help that the nurse tells me about the worse case scenarios; it scares the shit out of the patient that the situation becomes too much to cope and pretending nothing is going on is the easier way out.
People can use a little more empathy, patience and understanding.
Anyways. I am worried about my parents getting older.. Makes me wonder how much time do we really have left..
Reminder to self: must cherish people now.
♥Bid Farewell
